dive into the past and breathe in the future...?

dupa aproape o luna... o multime de lucruri s-au schimbat - apartament mobilat, in sfarsit ma pot simti "acasa in strainatate". feels good to hold your apartment key in your hand, stay in front of the door, turn it in the keyhole and enter your personal reign. made my life a lot more loveable.
other things just don't change, although you struggle for it.
ai simtit vreodata ca celuilalt i s-ar cuveni mai multa afectiune decat ii poti oferi?
ever felt guilty coz of not feeling at the same intensity?
ever wished u would but realize u just can't?
i do feel it.
ma simt vinovata ca altcineva imi atrage atentia, ca asa ceva este cu putinta, ca nu am ochi numai pentru o persoana.
ma simt vinovata ca ma atrag discutiile cu persoane din trecut, ca ma atrag chiar aceste persoane, ca sunt tentata sa-mi imaginez cum ar fi "one more try".
cum ar fi sa faci un pas in trecut si cu acea persoana sa imparti aerul viitorului...?
is there anything of the present that's left to save?